obvious?

she was beautiful and then.........she spoke.


what is obvious can obviously b wrong.(somewhere in PG)

Lithium

As i've mentioned earlier..I'm too bad wid titles.. so the title of this one doesn't really means to make any sense.Well its been long since I last visited here..(still figuring y the hell I start my posts with the same type of lines over and again)…actually there was not much to write or share lately…or on the flip side things were too much to write and too personal to share.

I always kind of wonder y people write blogs when m not writing the one…and again in contrary…y people don’t when I write one.

Right now the feeling expressed later in the statement pretty much sums up my mental state..in a nutshell..just feeling crappy.

Sometimes I feel all crap that @ 2.00 a.m I hav no one to call and talk to about it. I feel so hopeless at such times. It’s not that I don’t have frenz… but they r all too busy with their own lives…'V' wid his bharat bhraman and all stuff…trying to find what he really wants from life… 'G'…quite bizy learning how to make money in her dream B-skool...'R' gearing up for his final year of coll life…and 'K'…nothing much I can say ‘bout him..not many ppl can stand and talk to ur face when they r really guilty for they did…and as someone rightly said..the most dangerous kind of ppl r the ones wid guilt…so no comments on that.

And since v r all in different cities(except for one) and since v don’t get to meet as often(often being an over statement here, seeing the fact that I’ve not seen any of them for past three years except for V and K), the closeness that we had seems to have vanished….really??

Sorry for getting so personal and emotional. I just got carried away….and since m just out of all those washing machine roll of events which has been happening to me for past four and a half months…its time to think something about CAT..u have to run from some places to stay at places…and in all this running and staying..its very hard to keep ones sanity…pretty hard.

Mid-September is almost here and I still have not started thinking about CAT , leave alone preparing for it…and the sad part is I have lost all faith in myself….even if I do manage to crack CAT by some sheer stroke of luck, I’m pretty much sure I'll screw up in the interview….ironically I took drop this year just to take CAT more seriously than I did it last time.

There is so much to do, with the CAT inching closer and closer with a compelling determination, but I’ve lost the will to study. I feel so lonely and insignificant right now that I’m losing myself to the routine day by day, minute by minute. . I am tired of all the superficiality . I’m in a mess and need to get out of it…. Soon.

All which still makes me going is a sher which I recently read frm 'V's diary(sorry.. couldn’t help:)

Saahil ke sukun se hamein inkaar nahi,

magar toofano se kashti nikaalne ka mazaa hi aur hai!!

Which also reminds me of what Sharad sir always used to say..”if u can’t control what is happening to u…start enjoying it”.

Next time will try to post something light..entertaining and fun to read. Probably (I just love this word)

Meanwhile bought a brand new guitar…which (un)knowingly is an attempt to feel better..and sliding fingers over its strings..is proving out to be an absolute bliss.